Wednesday 21 January 2009 ♥ 05:34
ITS 2009..woohoo..this yr i made a major decision to stay in JC and fight my way out.
I believe tt i can do it..juz tt where is my self discipline..i swear i will change this yr..really
its sometimes sad that i see my class..1908 tgt yet i m so far..sigh..its lyk i have disassociated from society..but its ok..sch is starting in feb 2 n i have been doing lots n lots of shopping..haha =P
recently watching boys before flower..haha..gave me the feeling when i watched liu xing huan yuan n wang zi bian qing wa..haha..how i wish i can be the gal inside..good figure..spunky character n special..sigh
2009, resolution 1: SAVE money $$$$$$!!!
Tuesday 2 December 2008 ♥ 07:56
few more episodes n fated to love u is going to end..n in one of the behind scence clip..ming dao appeared..ohhh..my 2 favourite guys..haha..both tgt leh..=P
Monday 1 December 2008 ♥ 09:05
hehe..fated to love u ep 19 lo...haha..recently became a zhai nv..every day only teach tuition, watch drama..but its only going to worsen..i will be studying..lol..i guess my guiltiness is setting in..anyway..i shld study to make up for my mum who is going to save 200 for me to shop..altho 200 its not alot but tts fine with me..i have spent her alot of money le..sigh..the last time go out with xue ian to buy tt scarf..i kinda regret..not tt its no good but sigh..18 dollars ..spoof n gone..how i wish i was richer..perhaps i can buy the stuff i wan..tts y i must study hard n earn big bucks nxt time..its sad when u r poor. period.
fated to love u is nice..i officially declare tt its my 2nd favourite drama cause frog turn prince is somehow still first..it makes me cry more..fated to love u has sad scences but its slightly light hearted n the pace is faster..sigh..at the end of the day..i lyk drama's tt make me cry..lol
might be going genting with my relatives..as usual..i dun wanna meet them..its weird not going to malaysia to celebrate christmas..i miss her..i wonder how she's doing in heaven..she shld be quite disappointed in me i guess..=(
Sunday 30 November 2008 ♥ 08:17
hehe..fated to love u is nice..but still i lyk prince turn frog..perhaps i can relate to it more n i m not a pushover lyk chenxinyi...but i do lyk her aft the reborn..its amaxing how a person undergo metamorphisis..someday..i hope to undergo tt =)..for now..i muz take care..its juz 22 days more to my operation..cool huh??
actually..i m scared..scared abt how will i recover..my pace of recovery etc...i fear alot of things tt i used to be able to do..now its impossible..life sucks..the operation i m waiting for is not her..but the one i hated most is back again..fate??
Friday 28 November 2008 ♥ 05:02
after watching FATED TO LOVE U ep 1..there are many things tt i wld lyk to express..firstly, i can understand the hurt xinyi in the show felt when she realised tt the guy was such a jerk...how original she is is lyk how unattractive i m especially in terms of appearance..while she devote herself to this guy, the guy treated her otherwise..its lyk the more she hopes for a romance, the more absurd it is...somehow..i feel lyk her...but later of the show where she states tt she will completely forget n forgive the guy in order to let herself free..makes me realise tt i shld free myself from this misery too..wads mine is mine..what others dun see now..someday my prince will see..haha..
on the side note..sometimes..ji cun xi really looks lyk ming dao..actually..it wld be wonderful if he acted in this show instead..but ruan jing tian also not bad la..very pure..haha
Saturday 22 November 2008 ♥ 02:49
the guy b is over..now its guy w...lol..i change pretty fast huh..but guy b is not mine but gal a n i noe tt from the start..i have finally overcome tt n now its guy w instead..lol..as usual..i think guy w is for someone else..but its ok to dream isnt it..cant wait for zoe to be back..seriously need to gossip..lol XD
i watched perfect dut yesterday after camp and there was a part abt alex tan the surgeon doing a surgery for a cleft lip child...i felt sad when the mother thanked the doctor profusely..i somehow feel tt if i can be perfect now...wad wld i become..another prob i m facing is that i may go poly to take the marine course..i seriously dunno..my class mean so much to me but since i m retaining..makes no sense tt i go on repeating or shld i? lets wait until aft ngee ann open hse..haha xin hao will be my guide..=P
met cool ppl at obs..nila utama rocks..whoa..brian n ying ying were real fun..thank god jiaying was there for me..jeremy saved my life..literally..haha...lisa was the lemon which is sour but nice..kenneth is dirty minded..xD..darren is lyk a tree strong n assuring..ming hui is nice lyk clarrisa..yue an is encouraging...ruiling was quiet but at least we communicated..germyn was great in lending me lip gloss/ balm..n yu zhong was simply lame n funny...zhong huai was quiet but at least we survived the kayak sea ex..haha..juz hope tt every one can stay in contact =D
see u guys soon
Thursday 23 October 2008 ♥ 04:17
recently...i m sooo damn plagued with promos...its fated tt i will not be promoted...sigh..my heart feels so heavy..its lyk y?--deep down i noe y...its cos i m slack...i m useless...i m stupid...i m juz the opposite of everything good..i always thot when i m 18..i will graduate like everybody..but now...its impossible...i thot tt i could have my operartion @ 18...but its also not possible...all good things have eluded me so far..when will my time come...to stay back another yr i m prepared..i noe what to do n how to study now...its juz tt the thot of leaving juz hurts so much that my heart bleeds...drip drop drip...sometimes i juz wanna die..end this miserable life of mine..but i will not walk straight into the devil's trap..if god wans me to stay another yr..fine..his will be done...if tts the price i have to pay...let his will be done...cos tts the only way i can find comfort now....tmr is impt...it will decide lotsa things...we'll see what fate has in store for me....
guy B...i still havent gotten over him..y?..is it bcos i see him often?...anyway..it has to stop....when there is no future...end it...its the logical thing that one has to do right?life sucks...esp when i see A n B so close...its not jealous but its the feeling of being so non existent..so blatantly tt "hey..not u"...but y my heart cant obey...i feel miserable..i can never compare to anyone right? doesnt matter...i will do whatever it takes within these few months to shape myself...if not for him..at least for myself...
recently read a book my lurlene mc daniel...i will be seeing u...OMG...i cried soooo hard...i can totally understand how the gal inside feel...but shes lucky...she made it thru...but how many guys lyk tt exist...probably none....even if there is..it wont be me anyway...
i really love my class...they are all so precious to me...but now...its were...they were all so precious to me......syonara
